White Noises


My feelings of being very excited and scared, at the same time.
It has quieten down.
But at one point in time, a lot of memories flashed back all at once.

My head started to playback to the date of a decade back.
Except for those who have been by my side the past few years…
The rest who had become my ashes, as I’ve used their hurtful words as my fuel to move headstrong ahead.
Them… turning my spark to become a beautiful and warm fire.

Thank you for not hiring me.
The ones who shot me down… the companies whom I used to look up to.
You see…
If I was, things would’ve been so different and I actually love this path.

Thank you for telling me that I should not go for my dreams.
Because I had so-and-so qualifications.
I should concentrate on saving up all the money instead of heading out to the unknown and living my passion.
You see…
Whilst I see a lot of people working like a zombie and hating their job or the people around them, I enjoyed every moment of my work and I have never met such wonderful individuals and teams.
It’s true.

Thank you for mentioning that I should walk away because I have zero experience.
You have heard so much lies from so many, that you refuse to believe what I’ve said.
I feel you… to a certain point.
You see…
From then on, I have been so lucky for having so many people placing their trust on me.
Maybe it’s luck… maybe… it’s because I was and still am telling the truth.

I hope some day, you will not learn not to turn down that hard working young chap.
That you did not snigger at the one who had dreams.
That you will not spread lies about the one you’ll work with.
That you will not step or destroy others in order to move somewhere.

Never say or feel jealous of that person when the time comes for you to look at yourself in the mirror.
Because you did onto yourself, based on your choices.

On the other side…
The imperfect human “angels”…

Thank you for believing in me.
Thank you for trusting me.
Thank you for being my friend, caring and loving me.
Thank you for being more than just someone across the room or world.

The same way that I’ve always prayed for those whom I love.
Know that I’ll remember you when I pray.
You have taught me so much.

Results can be viable.
You’ll just have to fail so many times in order to be successful/learn (in any terms).


❤ Icesabel



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