The last good one of the old batch has left. He’s moving out of Asia and shifting to be the main director in our Syria’s office.
It isn’t just this piece of news that has made me feel a little more sentimental and dive into thinking a bit too much. One of my comrades is taking a month off of work and it makes me feel scared of losing the whole team. These people who I look forward to working with all these while. The 5 of us. The workaholic, the sleepy one, the innovative one, the quiet one and they call me the hyper one.
Getting bits of information that makes me wish that I was way more ignorant about my surroundings. Listening to sad or angry topics here and there. All the more making me feel that I should probably just hold on just a little bit longer, until this year ends, and nothing more.
It’s not that simple. I’ve realised that certain things will NOT change. How it reminds me of being in a perfectly wrong relationship and still holding on, whilst wishing and trying to change the other person or situation.
Ah… The little things that make me happy. My nubtart hubby, my naughty kitties… My night classes learning about awesome stuff… Oh yes, I’m going to collect my house keys mext month! A place I can call my own. Oh well…
What comes after all these will come as it should. Honestly, if I were to look at it with a clear mind, I don’t exactly have a direct problem. /touch wood. If I were smart, I’ll go with the flow without caring about other people’s problems. But, I’ve always been a fool. I KNOW! I know… I’m not a superhero and I’m not trying to be one. I just don’t want to see people who I care about to be sad or tired or weak. Frustrating, indeed.
This is that time when you wish you know nothing about everything.