إِنَّا لِلّهِ وَإِنَّـا إِلَيْهِ رَاجِعونَ‎

For those with islamophobia or is curious, the title only means “surely we belong to Allah and to Him shall we return”.
We’d say this upon hearing the news of a person’s death.

It saddens me to hear that some of my colleagues in Afghanistan were killed last week.
They were working with communities to provide clean water in remote areas.

My deepest condolences to the families of my colleagues.
I truly admire the work of all my colleagues from all over the world, especially those in very high-risked areas.
May God give their families, friends and other colleagues strength and patience through this rough times.
Watched a video on the work that they were doing a while ago.
Different areas and countries have different needs, thus, different projects being set up.
Too emotional… too emotional.

I didn’t want to talk about this, but, it made me think twice about a lot of things.
Since, it’s a touchy subject to begin with.

Just before I got married late last year, I jokingly asked my boss whether there was any budget for me to travel there to review their tech infrastructure and whatnot…
Because the guys invited me to see the main and some of the province offices, including sightseeing.
They might seem like they don’t have much from the eyes of outsiders, but, they truly have gorgeous places and rich background… I’ve seen a lot of pictures from them and heard stories, both good and bad.
Relax… I’m not irrational in even thinking about what society thinks people, who going there, would choose to do.

I was already “leeching” off my other 2 directors’ budget to go for that regional meeting, to even have the heart to ask or have a real reason to go there using theirs, since I’m only a small part of their department.
Not going to even ask why I don’t have a budget placed for myself, even though, I’m doing regional work.

But, it’s not as if my husband would allow me to travel to the offices in Pakistan or North Korea, even if there were plans to.
My boss does all the travelling.

Only managed to message one of the few to ask if everyone is alright.
Heard that the province office will be closed for a couple of days.

Life is… short.
Incredibly short.

I once asked someone, from another aid organisation, I attended overseas training with.
Why do you stay there to work, knowing all the risks involved and even though you do have a choice to be elsewhere or do something else?
Last part is because he was unsure on whether that was the career path he was going after.

It was to do with homeland.
Somehow, my bad memory wouldn’t allow me to remember anything more than that.
That was 2 years back.

Although my homeland (*coughs* more like the government) isn’t as perfect, I’ve learned one thing in particular.
Happiness is where you feel most at home.
Yes… even how bad it can get.

Overall, to stay grateful.

</3 Icesabel


5 thoughts on “إِنَّا لِلّهِ وَإِنَّـا إِلَيْهِ رَاجِعونَ‎

  1. Sorry to hear about the colleges. Be well. hugs.

    Why do we stay when we can go. Why do we go when we can stay. We try.and stay or come back. We do the things we do because we love doing them.
    Or so I like to see it. If we would not love it we would go. Follow our heart to happiness. Lay our head on a stone and make it home if it makes us happiest.

    As for the Islam. I know it is interpretation that changes views. But even so How does one feel when history is destroyed over the fact it was a wrong belief at those times. It is sad to see truth being erased as if they were lies?
    Open to debate. *wink*

    • Thanks for the kind words.
      Sometimes, happiness emits from the strangest places. At times, we cannot understand what others interpret as their version of happiness and see them as the opposite.
      I’m not going to debate about my religion.. at least, not for now. No offence, but, it’s tiring talking to adamant people. The same way where they see the other side as inflexible.


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