Part and parcel of it

Whilst still blur in the morning, we were all called in for an emergency meeting.
He said that an earthquake just occurred.
5 mins after settling down, he said it was a simulation.
But, there was a full-fledged simulation over at the “affected” country.
They had their power switched off for an hour.

I was tensed up a little… since, I’m not a morning person.
The last earthquake emergency, in Nepal, was actually still fresh in my mind.
Remember being called in on that weekend and a lot of things happening at the same time.

We went through a similar drill (more like an episode) to what really happened a few months back.

I realised that there were quite a big number of issues that weren’t looked at.
Our office was only opened for 4 years and we had only handled one CAT1 (Haiyan, Philippines) typhoon and one CAT 2 (Nepal) earthquake.
Went back to the 2 IT managers in both countries to ask them, what they wish they had, to ensure a more efficient and organised/effective emergency response.
Both of whom, went to the emergency preparedness training overseas together with one from Pakistan, one from Afghanistan and me, 2 years back.
God… is something going to happen in the other 2 countries?
Hmm… something is already happening though.

Training is just that… training…
If, we still didn’t have help from the other departments, budget and outside corps, when a real problem occurs.

Even on a normal basis, most places (companies/organisations) don’t look into IT.
It’s true that I always feel left out.
I, as in, being part of IT.
People forget we exist.
Until, something happens.

In both situations, other than problems with shortage of non-living things.
What they lacked the most was even caring that IT needed more hands.
Plus, they need to be CAPABLE techies.
Not just from overseas or neighbouring countries.

Anyway, 2 of the regional directors had a “cultural exchange” and the one from West Africa was here for a few weeks.
I actually learned quite a bit from her.
The horror stories of Ebola’s response.
Not about the deaths, actually.
Portions where the media and the rest of the world (organisations) never spoke of.
Of course, the culture and whatnot.
Plus being ladies, stuff that only we talk amongst ourselves.

There’s another girl in IT from the Africa region.
The number of girls in IT (lest, even in Asia itself) isn’t significant at all, what more, those from a higher position.

I did learn one thing about me.
These responses excite me… a lot.
Sure… I hate mornings… but, I’d be geared up for them.
Of course, we don’t want them to happen.
But, issues like natural disasters aren’t exactly controllable or predictable.

The things that profit-making companies cannot offer me.
I have to admit, sometimes, I do feel sad looking at the money I bring in.
(If I had continued with the job a few months back, I could afford more holidays abroad and pay off stuff.. being me… giving away more money — you know… games to gamers and the rest to charity… probably why I know I’d never be rich).
When I know the reality of the possible choices out there.
But, I don’t feel fulfilled.

When people talk to me and ask me about topics geared towards work.
I always tell them one thing.

Do what makes you most happy.

<3 Icesabel

State of panic

I was told that I come from a cancer-stricken lineage.
Although, I can’t remember who were the ones who had passed away due to that (but, I know there were a few).
It was only natural that, I panicked when I felt a little lump on my chest this morning.
The clinic that I’d usually go to didn’t have a lady doctor on standby today.
So, I had to go to the one near my mum’s place (where I used to go, when, I was younger) instead.
Checked that it was negative.

When I was younger (in my teens), my mum placed a small poster of how to check the chest area in the bathroom.
I didn’t even have an A-cup size boobs back then, but, I would randomly “check” for the fun of it.
The older one gets, the more susceptible it is to obtain these kinds of problems.
Luckily, I don’t have paranoia… was just being cautious.
But, just the thought of the start of a domino effect made me feel a little weak.

My hubby was so sweet to Google for me the numbers to call the 2 clinic receptions and buy me breakfast for brunch, for when I get back from the clinic.
How can he be so calm, when, I was panicking?!!!

</3 Icesabel


Don’t care why some people hate this song.
Love the lyrics.

OMI – Cheerleader
When I need motivation
My one solution is my queen
‘Cause she stays strong
Yeah, yeah
She is always in my corner
Right there when I want her
All these other girls are tempting
But I’m empty when you’re gone
And they say

Do you need me?
Do you think I’m pretty?
Do I make you feel like cheating?
And I’m like no, not really ’cause

Oh, I think that I’ve found myself a cheerleader
She is always right there when I need her
Oh, I think that I’ve found myself a cheerleader
She is always right there when I need her

She walks like a model
She grants my wishes
Like a genie in a bottle
Yeah, yeah
‘Cause I’m the wizard of love
And I got the magic wand
All these other girls are tempting
But I’m empty when you’re gone
And they say

Do you need me?
Do you think I’m pretty?
Do I make you feel like cheating?
And I’m like no, not really ’cause

Oh, I think that I’ve found myself a cheerleader
She is always right there when I need her
Oh, I think that I’ve found myself a cheerleader
She is always right there when I need her

She gives me love and affection
Baby, did I mention
You’re the only girl for me
No, I don’t need a next one
Mama loves you too
She thinks I made the right selection
Now all that’s left to do
Is just for me to pop the question

Oh, I think that I’ve found myself a cheerleader
She is always right there when I need her
Oh, I think that I’ve found myself a cheerleader
She is always right there when I need her

<3 Icesabel

The Stress of a MMORPG

I’ve always told myself… “don’t join a guild, until, you’re nearing the endgame (of some sort)”.
Even if, the guild is filled with super casual players.
But, if I don’t join a guild, I won’t be able to benefit from certain things that a guild would be able to offer.
You know… extra levelling points or playing with new-found friends, etc.
I get this urge to be better than someone at something, when I’m in a team.
It’s a bad habit that can’t be shed off, even how hard I try to ignore that irritating voice in my head.
It can be anything from the character level to different degree of item rank to the technique of pvp.
Annoys me.


How many times have I shut myself out of any team and do my own thing?
These games aren’t meant for me to feel stressed out.
I play a game to fill up that bit of free time, for the fun of it, feel a little accomplished in something extra (apart from my normal daily life fulfilment) or chilling out/gaming with my other irl friends.

For years, my hubby would tell me, “go make your own world and play by yourself”.
Just because, at times, I would whine about these petty issues.
I would though.
Sometimes, I would just spend time playing with a char on my own… block everyone out… just wondering around like a lost soul.
But, I’d eventually move on, since, I would often game-hop anyway.

It’s to the point that my hubby and I have an understanding that we would not play the same type of char in any game we’re playing together.
I would pick a fight, if, he were to take anything that should have belonged to my char.
Although, it wouldn’t matter if he was way better than me (as long as it was a different type of char).

If a game were to take precedence of my rl, then, it’s time to walk away as well.
Nope… no game is worth or even close to being equal to my real life.

Plus, if I notice that a game is going to rake up a lot of $, just so I can be somewhere.
I’d leave, whether anyone were to tell me to chill out.
The irritating part of me would’ve pissed me off by then.
It’ll result in me not enjoying an ounce of the game, thus, decide to un-install it and move on.
That extra 50 bucks can buy me something more worthwhile.

It probably wouldn’t even be a problem, if, I can eradicate that attitude of mine.
But, it isn’t something I can do much about, except to walk away.
No use in making myself feel jealous or upset, when the reason for me to game should be otherwise.

Hah… well… that’s that.

<3 Icesabel

Wow.. weee…. such excitement~

The game between Cloud9 and FNATIC kept me at the edge of my seat, in the semis!
Awesome game!
fnatic caught up to the score of Cloud9 and they went into overtime…
But, they stayed on par until the very end, with Cloud9 at 20 and fnatic at 19.
Ended with Olofmeister being the last man standing, who couldn’t contain the last 2 Cloud9 players, as Skadoodle managed to defuse the bomb to clench the win.

Unfortunately, they lost to TeamSoloMid in the finals, with a score of 16-2.

More info:
DreamHack and FACEIT together with, Razer, EIZO HyperX, Monster Energy, Intel, Alienware & Vulcun presents DreamHack Open Valencia 2015 where 8 teams fights for their share of the 150.000$ prize pool!

DreamHack Open Valencia will function as the live finals for the live finals event for the league FACEIT League Stage 2, which will mean that instead of teams earning their slot at DreamHack Valencia to compete in CS:GO through direct invitations, online qualification and BYOC qualification, the teams from the FACEIT League will serve as the 8 teams participating at DreamHack Valencia!

<3 Icesabel

Sponsorship pleaseeeeeee~

I’d like to go to Dreamhack Winter 2015 in Sweden, pl0x!!

Date: November 26-29th
Location: Elmia, Jönköping, Sweden
Ticket Entry: Either Event Pass SG$97 or Day Pass SG$25
Return Direct flight to Gothenburg, Sweden: SG$1200 (on sale right now… but originally, about SG$2000)
Accommodation: Nooo… not the sleeping halls :( Either airbnb or hostels or couch-surfing at a max of SG$100 and below per night
Food: Whatever, man… I eat to live; not live to eat… as long as it’s not too expensive.

Hur hur hur~
Although, I might suffer, when I’m outdoors, because I can’t stand the cold (aka anything below 23°C).
If the air is dry, my nose burns… really burns… always happens when I’m in an air-conditioned location!

Let’s see…
SGD1.00 = USD0.73 = Pound0.47 = Krona6.32

Alright… any sponsorships?

It’d be a bonus, if, I can stay there for a further 3 days.
Since it’s oceans away from home, might as well have a look around Gothenburg.
Especially Liseburg!

<3 Icesabel