Just a warning that this might seem a bit weird for guys to read.
I’ve been feeling nausea for nearly 2 and a half weeks.
Been contemplating on writing this post, but, meh… I feel a little frustrated and very exhausted right now.
Since I got married, my period has been on a fixed schedule of the first week of every month.
Before that, I was that underweight girl who never knew when her period would come.
It can skip for months, longest to date: 6 months of no period!
Since it was pretty normal in my family genes to go through this, plus being underweight before preggie, plus every other whatever thingy I can’t think of right now.
All these happened to my late great-grandma and grandma (I was/am their fave).
Not so for my mum.
Also, I’ve seen a few docs all those years and I’m pretty much healthy except for the underweight part, so, I never rally cared.
I probed on and did a little research and it’s partly due to the lack of fat percentage in our body, calculated based on the BMI.
The one with the weight of between 39-42kg, depending on whether I was active/stressed.
It wasn’t a choice, but, I wouldn’t say much about it with other girls/women anyway… you know how they are.
*pretty lucky that my family genes have ample boobs and butt, whether they were underweight or normal weight (after giving birth)… huhuhuhu…*.
So, I checked that it’s usually during the 6th week that women usually feel nausea.
Are you kidding me?
I was nausea 2 weeks after my period!
Became stronger and for longer hours after that.
The over the counter test showed negative since it was way too early to check.
But.. oh my gosh… I ALWAYS feel nausea.
Feeling so lethargic every night even though I didn’t even do much for the day.
No mood to do work because of the constant nausea sickly feeling.
All I can do is wait until the first week of next month.. which is.. next week.. to check properly with a doc.
Yes.. I’ve gained so much weight that I’ve already lost my 24″ waist and due to the ample thingy, said earlier.
I gain weight around those portions the most.
I’ve never had my tummy look bloated before.
I’m pretty much at 44kg now.
The perfect BMI, for my height, to have a kid… as I’ve read.
I hate the non-stop nausea feeling.
But, I still feel blessed that I’ve got an annoying, but, loving hubby.
There are a lot of things he has done on his part which are pretty much awesome, to me.
So many things.
And.. he has never been so appreciative and shows it to me, not even before we got married and we knew each other for a decade.
Sure, everyone goes through squabbles… but, other than him annoying me to bits with nonsensical “issues”.
He’s quite different from who he was before we got married.
It’s for the better.
Like I’ve mentioned weeks back, that, when my younger sister-in-law got married, his relatives and mum said I was preggie just by looking at me.
My mum casually said that I was just happy and gained weight.
But, she did say that when she visited my grandma recently, my grandma asked my mum if there was any “good news”.
My grandma asked me if the guy beside me was my hubby on the day of my wedding more than 20 times, because she has dementia.
I didn’t expect that she would remember after that.
More so, to ask that particular question!
My friend said that older people sometimes have a sixth sense.
I’m not denying that, but, I’d know the facts when I see it next month.
Honestly, I’m half-happy and half-stressed.
Happy if I do get a blessing of joy from God.
Stressed because we’ve got quite a load of problems to solve.
We don’t even have our own place yet and paying a high rent for where we’re staying at.
I don’t know if I can find a new job right now.
It wouldn’t be too fair for the new company to hire me and then for me to go on a 3-months maternity leave just after the probation period.
Although, there are a lot of problems that stacked upon each other at work, as to why I want to leave.
I did tell a few people about this.
They told me that things happen as it should.
I know… I always tell that to others.
I’m just scared that things won’t be right enough.
Come to think of it, I haven’t even told my mum about this.
I wanted to when I visit her.
Maybe I should visit her today alone instead of the weekend with my hubby.
We might not have been the best of friends last time, but, she’s my mum..
She has given me good advice for years.. although, I do not agree on a small percentage of them…
She has been a nurse for 40 years, working for a lot of hospitals around the island.
It still rings in my ears…
She told me that she would not take care of my kids if I marry my hubby…
Although, she did acknowledge him and is nice to him since we got married.
If you know what I mean.
She hated him back then.